Away


“Y si, estás lejos. No es que no te tenga porque nada es realmente mío. Yo soy de apreciar las cosas, de encontrarle sentido o dárselo si no lo tienen. Ahora que estás lejos, sólo me queda contemplarte… Y sí, estás lejos. ¿Qué importa si lo estás? De esa manera, rodeas también mi vida, a una órbita mayor por supuesto, ¿pero qué importa? Pues de esa manera te conviertes en mi paisaje. Y es así como llego amar a tu ausencia.”

“And yes, you’re far away. It’s not that I don’t have you because nothing is really mine.  I’m one who appreciates things, to find sense in something and give to give sense if it doesn’t have it. Now that you’re far away, I can only contemplate you… And yes, you’re far away. And what does it matter if you are? In that way, you sorround my life, at a bigger orbit, of course; but should it matter? In this way you are my scenery.  And that is how I am loving your absence.”

 

By: J. Porcupine
Translation: Jose Clavell

Kairos


The ground, the occult, and the savior.


Wow… it’s been more than 10 days since I’ve updated from the grad school tag. Grad school is… still intensive. Not as intensive as before, ’cause I am getting the hang of it, but intense nonetheless. At least, I am getting better in my conducting, in internalizing this harmonic system, and getting to be “myself” in front of the choir. Things I need to finally get into my head…

  • nothing will be perfect or go as you think it will.
  • Just like Wagner stated in his article “Art takes time”
  • nothing will change in a day
  • Keep practising, done? Again.
  • I’m here for a reason
  • I am good at what I do and I should just stop self doubting
  • If the University gave a fall break, it’s because it’s NECESARRY. Stop overthinking and doing and give yourself a free day!
  • have more fun
  • Musicallity cannot be taught, it comes from within

 

 

Silver, Red, and Gold


 

Glide
Fall down, collide
break new ground
smile…

Let it rain
let it fall
engulf the winds
deluge…

 

Rivers


Trickle down my spine
Show me who you are
Walk through the path and
Light up my world tonight

Arpeggios percolate through the air
shimmering, twinkling, and larking
a simple melody beckons and
casts back my soul

My face glimmers
snow cascades
turn back
and smile away…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uyZJ3rNb4xM

Inspire me, Stranger.


Intangible


“heart”


“When your mind becomes motionless
and the brilliant eyes of the peaceful mind
take a straight look down into the depth of your heart
you will see the life-force pulsating and thriving
in the warmth of pure love.

As you experience this pure love
what we all call “heart”
beams of light will begin to radiate from the center of it
for heaven is there in eternity.

If you can release this radiance of love
and allow it to flow through you,
your heart will become light.
The spirit will get liberated into the air
and then, from a place of inner stillness
you will know what it would be like
to be an eagle and soar in the evening skies.

And most of all,
you would understand
what it would be like
to be perfectly sane.”

 Bhante Wimala

Metaphors


A metaphor is the omnipresent principle of language… Thought is metaphoric, and proceeds by comparison, and the metaphors of language derive from them

– Richards

I feel it’s going to rain (paperwork)


This week that passed on grad school…

  1. You may mess up completely in your conducting and may have to meet your professor for further assessment.
  2. The day feel ready to meet your professor is the day he’s not on campus.
  3. That’s not the way you hold a baton… in your case you should ’cause that baton is like a Harry Potter wand. My response… CRUCIO!
  4. Handel composed “And the Glory WRATH of the conductor shall be revealed”. A song specially dedicated to all conducting majors in the world.
  5. When you think you don’t have enough work, think again.
  6. How many grad students does it take to move a speaker?
  7. Are we on key? Is that a C? a C #? C flat? whut? My thought process when we Glory the anna
  8. Britten concert was a cool experience as a birthday.
  9. You can fall asleep on your couch after a skype call, while your friends wait for you in their house to celebrate.
  10. You will start missing people the day before, during, and after your birthday. (Specially those who are in the moving process).
  11. You all did well, but you still have to take another test of the same material next week (this Wednesday).
  12. My abstract was French with a touch of Dutch… I think I can roll with this… if I can ACTUALLY get the dissertation and scores I asked for… 3 weeks ago?
  13. Lully and Mendelsohn are cool… so cool that I listen to their pieces for basically an hour on repeat and then say WAIT I need to annotate things on these scores. Process may be repeated at least three times this weekend.
  14. J. S. Bach is a cat. With fluffy ears, which I want to pet (if he doesn’t kill me first or tries to escape, and succeed.)
  15. Starbucks Colombian coffee is NOT good enough. I need my Puertorrican coffee.
  16. That moment when your harmony professor calls you and tells you “if you migrate from our harmonic system to theirs (US system) I will disown you. Hey, here’s my email. Anything you need call me, text me or email me (specially for scores).”
  17. Choral Literature Jepordy:  Here… listen to these 3 obscure passages from the 16 pieces. They have no text. Who wrote it?
  18. Something as simple as assisting in giving a midterm may be reassure yourself that you want to be a professor.