Monthly Archives: October 2012



Cold bed
Rain falls
Whispers flow
crooked spine
closed eyes

droplets fall
murmurs speak
“Anywhere but here”

Constant embraces
Eye contact
witty comments & life plans
…London, Paris, Milan…
kiss fulfills the pact

Cold bed
Rain pouring
breathing softly
holds pillow
Softly whispers…
         “Tu me manques, Je t’aime”



Only the darkness knows my plight
Only the darkness knows my sorrow and
the times I’ve cried

Only the night knows
my cuts
my bruises
my scars
the dark holes in my eyes
my paling skin

Only the darkness knows my solitude
Only the darkness understands that won’t see the light…
Only my body knows the cold…
of how much I want your warmth around me

Only the dusk knows my sleepless nights
…the affliction in my heart
….the arch in my back
….the anguish in my soul

Only the darkness can grasp my research
… the endless nights of my pupils burning
… the heavy weight I carry while I walk

The twilight scarcely perceives what my mind’s thinking
….the plots planted
…hope dwindling
… plans expiring

A blaze blinds my soul
… minutes before it consumes me…
… a whisper yearns
a kindle emerges from…

…. the darkness


[i carry your heart with me(i carry it in]

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)



Do you?

Do you cry at night?
Feeling alone, deserted,
as if nobody wants you
nobody cares
you’re not good enough…

Do you think of all the possibilities in your life?
Your triumphs?
The times you laughed, cried, and loved?

Do you remember when you first crashed,
cried all night, hugging your pillow,
your eyes and nose red from all the pain
… of that feeling of your soul splitting…

Do you remember that first time you fell in love?
The feeling when you noticed, and blushed because somebody asked you…
The felling when you saw him and your body betrayed you
sweaty hands,
mind racing,
stomach churning,
time freezing,
smiling awkwardly…
and embarrassing yourself

Do you remember when you dreamed your dream for the first time?
Of your future together,
traveling, growing old together with a family?

Do you lay in bed
thinking of the future?
Uncertain, scary, with a big question mark
but you close your eyes and imagine he’s there
and everything feels calm…
because you feel like everything will turn out ok…
just because he’s beside you

Clouds form in your head
raining on your face
just wanting to get out
just waiting for you
…just waiting for that signal…
… the signal of you

Just smile

Softly smiling, hiding the crack

he said: “Don’t worry. I’m ok.”

They all stand, clap and cheer

Smiling broadly, he turns around

Standing ovation.

He’s not here.

-Musical Poetry

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